A PEAK FROM MY NOT-SO SUITE LIFE

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  1. Swear

    Siguro nga, ito na ang pinaka-ultimatum na gagawin ko…

    Hindi na ako maiinlove. As in. Ever.

    Kasi naman. Palagi akong bigo. Wala na akong napala. Puro na lang sakit at hapdi. Napakasakit na. Nakakainis na. Ayaw ko na!

    Naging happy naman siguro ako kahit papano. I got so many kilig moments. And also, nagkaroon na rin ako ng mga boyfriends. But then again, the two relationships became a huge failure. Kasi si first, 9 days lang while si 2nd kabaligataran ng 9. HAHA!

    Well, whatever. Getting into that relationships and getting my heart broken over boys na naging crushes ko made me realize something. It’s that I must stop searching for love and let it come to me when the right time comes. Kaya focus muna sa studies and forget about being inlove or the feeling of being in love. Kung kaya ko.

    According to Nicole, “Boys do fall inlove but…” But? First, they fall out of love easily and they move on so easy. And second, once they found someone new it’s like you don’t exist into their lives anymore.

    But the very thing that made me realize everything that boys are boys is when I knew from a friend that he’s courting someone else. Someone that doesn’t fall sa standards ng tipical nice guys like him. Parang all of a sudden, my perspective of him being nice and all suddenly dissolved into thin air. Katulad rin siya nang iba. Pare-parehas lang sila. So ngayon, tanggap ko na na wala na kaming chance. And nabahiran na rin ng pagka-turn off ‘yung pain na naramdaman ko sa kanya.

    Well, this is the end of my love-striken post. Ayaw ko na magpost anything about love. So sad. Super rant mode! :/



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  2. Letting you go…

    And I will finally let you go…

    Maybe this is the best way. Maybe it’s the only way.

    I don’t want to think of him as much as I do.

    ‘Coz I want to gain my sanity. I want to have a new life.

    I want to have a life without him.

    Without any thoughts of him

    Without any remnants of his smile.

    His way of talking.

    His way of making me laugh.

    His way of comforting me when I need it.

    And his way of making me feel important.

    I want him erased.

    I want to stand, as if he didn’t existed.

    I want to forget.

    I want to move on.

    And I want to let go of everything that comprises him.

    Because someday I do believe

    that only LOVE can bring us together

    And if that happens,

    I want to be his last.

    Because I want us to last forever. :D



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  3. Logan Lerman is L-O-V-E! :D

    Logan Lerman is L-O-V-E! :D

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  4. Last love.

    Hindi ko talaga maintindihan. Hindi ko talaga siya ma-gets. He seemed weird. Or so I thought.

    Mula noong naging kami hanggang nagbreak kami ni EX2, he was there with me. I mean, kung kailangan ko ‘yung advices niya or his company alone nandiyan siya. He’s not physically present but we communicate through Facebook and mobile. Siya ang BFF ko. And I talk to him about anything and ganon rin siya.

    Nakakapagtaka lang na he’s  texting me eversince then. It’s a good thing though pero ayun, nashoshock lang ako. Honestly, I can sense something but I don’t mind it. Kasi baka mali naman or talagang wrong assumption lang ‘yun. I mean, we’re friends naman. BFFs nga kami.

    Pero kung bibigyan nang pagkakataon, I really want him. Not today but someday when we could realize na kami pala for each other. I don’t want to be his latest love but I want to be his last love. If ever lang naman. Kasi right now, both of us don’t want to engage in a relationship. Kasi naman, we both have traumatic pasts.

    Mahal ko siya. Pero hindi ko alam kung sapat na ba ito para maging kami. I love him as a best friend kaya I don’t want us to engage in a deeper relationship. I am happy on how we are right now. Pure friends.



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  5. I will… Aim for UNO. Mukha mang mahirap o kaya’y imposible, pero kakayanin kong makakuha ng uno. Sana. Sana. Kasi kailangan ko ito nang sa gayon ay makaalis ako sa aking Lupang Sinilangan. HAHA! :)) Say no to PROCRASTINATING. Procrastination is my middle name. Kaya naman this year, super review dapat and super gawa ng school works and assignments. Do things before the deadline para wala na akong gagawin afterwards. After all, ano naman ang use ng napakadami kong vacants if I won’t make use of this as a time for school-related activities? HAHA. Get high grades on exams. Kaya nga, I need to review after classes para mafully absorb ko ‘yung topics. So after this, imma study my notes again although wala pang masyadong lessons. Religion and Ethics na nga lang ‘yung pinagtiyatiyagaan ko kasi wala pa akong books for the major subjects. But nonetheless, I really learned a lot sa RE subject ko. Go for goal. Go for DEAN’S LIST. So I need to be included sa dean’s list. Kumbaga sa High School, dapat ako’y maging honor student. May discount sa tuition fee ‘yung dean’s listers and it’s a big achievement na sa college next to Cum Laudes. So I must survive the whole year. I mean it. I should study hard because I am aiming for something. College is real life unlike in High School where you can play always. :D

    I will…

    1. Aim for UNO. Mukha mang mahirap o kaya’y imposible, pero kakayanin kong makakuha ng uno. Sana. Sana. Kasi kailangan ko ito nang sa gayon ay makaalis ako sa aking Lupang Sinilangan. HAHA! :))
    2. Say no to PROCRASTINATING. Procrastination is my middle name. Kaya naman this year, super review dapat and super gawa ng school works and assignments. Do things before the deadline para wala na akong gagawin afterwards. After all, ano naman ang use ng napakadami kong vacants if I won’t make use of this as a time for school-related activities? HAHA.
    3. Get high grades on exams. Kaya nga, I need to review after classes para mafully absorb ko ‘yung topics. So after this, imma study my notes again although wala pang masyadong lessons. Religion and Ethics na nga lang ‘yung pinagtiyatiyagaan ko kasi wala pa akong books for the major subjects. But nonetheless, I really learned a lot sa RE subject ko.
    4. Go for goal. Go for DEAN’S LIST. So I need to be included sa dean’s list. Kumbaga sa High School, dapat ako’y maging honor student. May discount sa tuition fee ‘yung dean’s listers and it’s a big achievement na sa college next to Cum Laudes.

    So I must survive the whole year. I mean it. I should study hard because I am aiming for something. College is real life unlike in High School where you can play always. :D

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  6. I WOULD DIE! HAHA! LOLjk. =)) But srsly, I feel like fainting or what. But then again, I won’t follow him so that he won’t discover my URL containing the blog dedicated to him. HAHA!

    I WOULD DIE! HAHA! LOLjk. =))

    But srsly, I feel like fainting or what. But then again, I won’t follow him so that he won’t discover my URL containing the blog dedicated to him. HAHA!

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  7. LET GO. :D

    LET GO. :D

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  8. First week in College

    My first week is very different. Different in the sense that the week ended early. So my classes today ended at 1pm because the teacher moved the TFN subject on Tuesday with three hours straight classes. It’s a good thing though because we will have a super vacant hours on Thursday and Friday. But in contrast, we will have a doomed day on Tuesday since we will have a 10am until 4pm straight classes.

    I have met my classmates. I mean, I know them but I don’t hang with them that much. I know their face yet I forgot their name. My sole, constant companion is Nicole, my batchmate/schoolmate.

    I love my subjects and the teachers. Magaling ‘yung mga teachers magturo and the subjects were interesting, especially Psychology and English wherein we find ourselves laughing hard. Madaming HWs and reading ‘yung RE. And I’ve finished reading until sa coverage ng prelim para review-review na lang sa prelim. And the other reason is, wala pa naman kaming books for the other subjects.

    I was thinking. Will I buy a book or not? Actually, the books are not that expensive naman compared sa High School books ko. Medyo kaya  naman ng budget. I want to have my own naman kasi for future references sake. Para naman mareview ko ‘yun if I’ll be taking the board exams or for other purposes. Kasi when the book that you are using is borrowed, you will spend a limited time with it kasi ibabalik mo pa. And nakakahiya namang punuin ng  bonggang-bonggang dashes of marker. Pero, I’ll try to discuss this with my mother to know the verdict.

    A funny and ironic thing that has been happening to me in my English class is that I find our teacher, Ms. Trompeta as Ms. Geromiano. Paranoid lang kaya ako or what? Or may trauma lang talaga  ako kay Ms. G? The gestures, the being prim and proper reminds me  much of Ms. G. Pero they have one big difference: Ms. T is very humorous in a formal way while Ms. G is uhm, nevermind. :P But nonetheless, they have one big similarity: they pronounce my name with a thick ‘e’ and they kind of freak me  out when they notice me.

    Other experiences that I have is that I was elected as the Class Secretary by landslide, thanks to Nicole. Well, I am really not thankful though. Kasi ayoko na nang responsibilities outside my studies. I had enough of it noong High School. Pero at the same time, it’s okay naman for me at least somehow I exist as somebody sa classroom. Also, I experienced to eat much sa Uy building. Kaya hindi talaga ako papayat pala dito kasi sa Iloilo kasi ang cheap ng food dito and ang sarap pa. Whew! But probably, the best experience that I have is to stay here at a dormitory without my classmates here sa room although we are living in a same dormitory.

    Wait. While reminiscing, I remember my weird classmate. Wala lang. Nicole and I find him weird. The way he walks looks like weird. And he wears that gigantic Supra shoes on our first day. And kanina, ironically groupmate namin siya ni Nicole sa English. He laughs so boisterous. Ayy naku! HAHA.

    So far, so good ang college life. Maybe it’s because wala pa ako sa brink of difficulty nito. Pero, I kinda enjoy this naman but I still carry the pressure to study hard if I want to graduate outside the country. So hopefully, sana maka-uno grades ako. A much effort in studying and listening in the class would really help. Of course, a motivating factor for it is the company of your friends. :D



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  9. I NEVER STOPPED LOVING YOU, I JUST STOPPED SHOWING IT. *NOW YOU KNOW? :))

    I NEVER STOPPED LOVING YOU, I JUST STOPPED SHOWING IT.

    *NOW YOU KNOW? :))

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  10. I EAT MORE THAN LAUREN CONRAD AND I LOVE IT BECAUSE MY LIFE AMBITION IS TO BECOME A PORN STAR. ROFL MUCH! =)))

    I EAT MORE THAN LAUREN CONRAD AND I LOVE IT BECAUSE MY LIFE AMBITION IS TO BECOME A PORN STAR.

    ROFL MUCH! =)))

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